As the phoenix within the eagle took flight,
another was born,
readying itself for flight
and so, our story begins...Haven been able to post for a long time argh ._.
i will try my best to be active
This whole month,
I have been wondering about illusion.
Illusion of movements.
Illusion within sound.
Illusion within everything around us.
What we see or hear may not be exactly as our brain says it is.
Many things are like that.
From a song to a dance move, from animation to just static objects
Things can be missing, yet whole.
These are the qualities of what i hope to work with.
Every idea has its problems, and with problems, come solutions.
These are where these "illusions" appear from.
Makes me think a lot.
Everytime i listen to songs,
I listen extremely clearly and notice things that a person doesn't usually notice.
Where you think is silence, there is sound
Where you think is complete, it is missing
These are what makes things so interesting and fascinating
Sometimes a complete perfect drawing is a bore to look at.
Having imperfectness is sometimes the way of life
To think i was a perfectionist in the past.
That perfectionism has since drifted far from me.
What I believed to be perfect in the past is actually not.
I make no effort to change it, for I know in the future I will think it even less perfect. It is a cycle, you cannot avoid it.
Not unless it truly is perfect.
There is a reason why "Keep looking forward." came about.
It is what keeps us moving forward,
what allows us to make progress.
Never be a perfectionist. It wastes time. Precious time. Most things people make, they think as not up to standards. This is where other people come in.
You need other people to judge what you make. Judging what you made by yourself is hard.
hmm the post above made me think a lot.
Completely made up of everything that came to me over these few days
Imperfect yet perfect...
Interesting topic that i still have to continue studying. Especially not just the concept but how it works. =)
4:30 AM
ok this is rather unexpected,
yesterday, din go to school, got "severe chest pain" and couldn't breathe too well.
it all triggered from friday, after PE...
then having a lot of problems with eating...
hell lot of problems...
then now. THIS.
SURGERY?!?!
hmm.
ok this is quite new =/
never thought i'd have to do something like this
apparently, the protruding chest bone thingy (sternum) is the problem
solution? cut it off o.O
ok now that is worrying.
WORRYING.
First, they'd have to make an incision at the area,
cut and REMOVE the bone thingys...
then hospitalize me for 1 week...
and recovery time up to 2 weeks.
surgery scheduled in JUNE.
doctor said, if anything happens during the course of time before june.
call him
he'll arrange the surgery to take place immediately.
meaning if anything happens before april,
no artsfest
if anything happens after april, no more mid year
to sum things up:
I'm SCREWED.
I thought'd it would be the brace thingy like the internet said.
the doctor said:"that has very little effect, and anyways, doesn't your chest hurt when something presses into your chest?"
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
oh wellz
if the doctor is going to cut stuff out of me, I wanna take a look at it xD
after all, its gotta be kinda cool lol
ok nvm got things to do bye!
9:02 PM
Woots 1st homework came in liao lols. Math: Surds lol.
EEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSYYYYYYYYYYY
ok enough about that small piece of hw.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
back to school and I finally got my 1st late slip >.<
I REAAALLLY shouldn't read newspapers while eating haha
makes me forget what time it is!
oh well... next time lor
PE DIED.
chest pain cause of the distortion in my bone structure at my ribcage.
sternum (the little bone thingy in the middle) protrudes out and impedes the lung muscles, thus making it hard for me to breathe when running. muscles there ache causing pain. (too cheem liao xD)
Apparently going to doctor soon once the doctor is back from overseas.
then i will have a chest brace thingy made of aluminium (+ the straps)
truly become the iron man that some people are calling me now ._.
just like iron man got something at the chest come out xD
Well, this post was written across 3 days.
was quite happy at the start. It started with a good note.
Don't know how it will end though.
For one of the times in my life, I have come face on with a commonly known experience: "Tragic Death" or basically: failure.
Something that you don't feel everyday can be a real shock to you.
I really felt useless today.
Felt really tiny and insignificant.
So many things. So little time.
Everyday is now passing so fast, yet it feels like a million years.
Things are all piling up.
So many dates to remember.
Pressure on competitions.
...
...
...
..
.
Hey! but then again. there is not a point in being sad. =)
"When you laugh, the world laughs with you. When you cry, you cry alone."
I decided to be more optimistic about this whole stresspressure thing.
Looking back,
I have seen major changes in the past week.
I suddenly have an urge to write down anything important.
An urge to be organised
An urge to live up to everyone's expectations. Especially today.
Tomorrow is a new day. A fresh start.
A new beginning.
I'm ready for it.
It's time to push ahead.
To put the past behind.
As AON has spoken:
BRING IT ON!!!
6:18 AM
=D
not much to say here =)
mustn't spoil surprise for the future batches! haha
anyways, good luck to RGS having their OBS after us!
if you get Kiah Hong (He's my instructor)
then your OBS is gonna be a fun one haha
my obs was much easier than hui jun =)
i only trekked around pulau ubin and rowed in a rowboat around pulau ubin
not much ba
no muscle ache and sunburnt,
actually not very tired after all that haha
yesterday I was quite sleepy though ._.
most of the time i slept about 5 hours or 4 hours max haha
but i would say that it was great!
-hui jun:
WHOOPS. I actually just took any extra stuff that the other groups left behind and claimed it wasn't theirs
turned out they come begging for the items back lols.
of course we gave the items back lah
apparently,
some of the ri guys actually left their hp numbers around the area LOL
hoping for some girl to call them o.O
I've nothing much to say about OBS
just have fun carrying 10 kg packs (the bags themselves are dam heavy so yeah ._.)
across long distances xD
MAKE SURE YOU BRING 2x of the 1.5l bottle or you will seriously die
I can last 5 hours without water but i seriously doubt you would like to do that ._.
i brought my 2x 1.5 l bottles then like my whole group only like had 5-6 ppl who brought that.
the rest are like bringing 500ml bottles
i got my tentmates to share one of my 1.5l bottles while i myself used 1.5l lols
the rafting was fun tho
some of the knots are new =D
and the swimming about was quite fun too
our raft was one of the ones which ACTUALLY FLOATED...
for 5 min LOL
then the weight of the raft structure gave way to the barrels which were pushing upward
turned out the knots were not meant to hold the barrels down,
mistake on our part >.<
structure wasn't see secure but anyways
other groups didn't even make it to that part lols
their barrles just dropped off the raft when they put it in the water xD
oh wellz
sunblock, sunblock, sunblock if you don't wanna get burnt!
(like rudolf the reindeer. brown face red nose)
think you want a tan? think again
bad idea. sure die sort of plan lols.
anyways just chiong in through all the tasks!
won't die de hurhurhur...
I think all of us changed classes this year,
hope you guys enjoy your new class!
its a brand new 2010 when you can start anew with new people! =D
3:09 AM
hmm its weird seeing this same box which i typed in like a year ago...
wonder why i decided to come back to write random things o.o
maybe i thought that this is a good testing ground for designing stuff?
and I can just come up with new stuff to put on this blog...
or that i missed typing stuff like this.
anyways.
I have decided to start over this blog stuff
and forget what i've posted in the past.
i deleted the blog and restarted over with the same address.
but enough of that now. its time to move on.
2009 has been a great year,
but the fun and games are over.
the times we have been enjoying the fruits of labours of our seniors,
the ones who have led us these 2 years,
The sec 3s and the sec 4s,
is now over.
this 2010 is the time in which we now take over that job.
the job of maintaining the unit, building on where our seniors left off.
2009!
the year in which i told myself:
"you seriously need to focus on your academics"
so this year, hopefully i can pull my academics up, and study harder ><
June:
Only thing i remembered was the campfire o.O
STRESS AH. that dance thing i was scared that i couldn't finished in time ._.
NEVER AGAIN.
NOV/AON:
November camp.
Enjoyable time of building sandcastles and carrying SOME ppl *ahem*
Great job on the camp. Loved the ice pops xD
I really will never forget that card: 4) Unity Will Strengthen Us.
that was line number 4 of a list of lines made by Jeremy Teo. (RCYC Delta, Chairman of RIRC.)
It works just like this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=42E2fAWM6rA
SUPER COOL XD
RCYC:
I think most of us got sore legs for the rest of the week from xD
Charlie won! (The maomao xD)
Unforgetable. ESPECIALLY if you got the maomao XD
the maomao is a symbol of winning RCYC.
4 Divisions.
Alpha Bravo CHARLIE Delta
8 Platoons.
Alpha 1 & 2, Bravo 1 & 2, CHARLIE 1 & 2, Delta 1 & 2
1 RCYC
Being open is an important part of RCYC.
It makes it easier for you to work together.
during the whole thing
Teamwork was the most important thing throughout the camp.
Without Unity, there cannot be hope of winning.
It is not only teamwork within your own platoon that brings you closer to winning,
but teamwork with your whole division.
Charlie 1 and 2 stuck together most of the time,
we were the division that kept bumping into each other and stuck together =)
none of the other divisions bumped into each other more than us XD
bimboticness rulez, and nothing will beat us.
even though we kinda looked weird at the start,
doing it together gave the cheers meaning and even the other divisions copied us(ALOT):
Anything your division does for a cheer will look good if everyone puts in the energy and enthusiasm in it.
One more thing. THOSE OF YOU IN CHARLIE BETTER MAKE THE MAOMAO STAY ON CHARLIE'S FLAG XDDDD
RCYC is a time of making friends =)
BE OPEN!
Right after RCYC its like everyday mass convo.
Really enjoyed it =)
Then after like 1 week its like... everyone disappeared... =(
like magic? =/
probably cause schools starting! (Woohoo?)
or maybe cause everyone's chionging their holiday hw now XD
AON and RCYC has come and gone so fast.
almost like it wasn't there!
ANYWAYS.
tomorrow is OBS. 3 camps in 3 months. O.o
+ i haven finished packing... speaking of which i should go and do now.
I think im done talking about the past year of fun and games.
its time to worry about other things.
Other things like...
2010.
the new year.
a decade has gone by from 2000.
looking back, it seemed that everyone i've known changed a lot.
friends, family... everyone.
but what lies ahead is something to be ready for.
new discoveries, new goals, new life.
Good luck for this year to all =)
both for studies and taking over your cca =)
Brace yourself once again!
we've survived 9 years of the 21st century. time to make it 10 years! =)
9:55 PM
